Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Blog Isn't Over!!!

Since my last post a few hours ago, I've gotten about 25 emails from people begging me not to stop my blog.

I never planned on it.

Let me clarify: The story of my struggle with the actual disease is pretty much over; that's true. But the reason I originally started my blog was so that I could vent about life after cancer- what it means to live with the disease always on your tail.

I had to put my story on here first, as background. It just took me over a year to get it all here. Now it's finally all on this blog and now I hopefully can continue writing about what I originally wanted to.

I found that when I was sick I got all the chizuk and help I needed. There were organizations prepared just for that. But then I found that after the illness is gone, there is a certain emotional strength one needs to carry on in life that isn't readily there.

I get the weirdest stories and comments all the time about my past, and really that's another reason this blog is here.

I know that there are so many people out there wanting to do chessed. It is amazing how good people are, and how much time and effort they are willing to give of themselves for others. I want to help too.

I want my blog to be an eye opener to people out there about how we, the other side feels. About the comments we get, the reactions we face, and the lives we live. I want to help you do your part, by telling you what it means to be a cancer survivor.

Up until now, my story was here for you to get to know me.

Now that you do, I want to take my blog further. I want to stop backdating my posts, and start posting in real time. Today. Cancer is 4 years in my past yet it is here with me always lurking in the background.

I want you to know what that's like.

Please continue to come back here as I fully plan to continue posting. Hodgkin's may be over, but my story sure isn't!

11 comments:

chchick said...

Bring it on. I'm all ears. Keep on venting.

halfshared said...

Phew!

Lakewood Venter said...

Keep strong!

Miriam Schlesinger said...

happy to hear its isnt over i still want to hear more!

Anonymous said...

I found your blog recently and just finished reading your all the archives. You're unbelievable and your story is so inspiring. You are so lucky that you had an easy time getting married. bh. I know a few girls who had cancer as teenagers and are now having such problems with shidduchim.
anyway, i'm looking forward to hearing whatever else you have to say about life after cancer. keep it up!

little sheep said...

well, here i am, at the begining of what's left! i really do have more to say about jealousy btw, i just have to get the words right, and then i'll be able to tell you...hey, you can check my blog for when it'll show up! (don't worry, i'll send it to you personally...)

NUDGE said...

Can you Puleeeze put back the posts up until this one that you erased? Its been a while (exactly 2 years to be exact)from when your book was published and I think that by now basically everyone has read your book already. I mean, do you think there is any blog reader who is keeping up with your posts, that didn't read your book? ( and if you want to know about me, YES i read it, and more than a couple of times)
I know what you'll tell me, its basically the same thing than the book. Still i would like to read it without the changes that were done, even if they are minor, just for curiousity sake.

Waiting to hear from you...

J.A.P. said...

Hey Nudge,

I hear ya, but I still can't put up the old posts. First of all, there are TONS of people who haven't read the book yet. I see where I speak that lots of audiences that are not part of the strictly orthodox community haven't read it and are slowly learning about it.

Also, and more importantly, I have a contract with ArtScroll. The manuscript belongs to them for as long as they are still publishing the book. I can't put old posts back up because that would violate my contract and could take away money from their sales.

Thanks for your interest though!

NUDGE said...

Yeah, I hear what your saying,what a pity...
Thankx anyways.
BTW I'm just curious what does LOL stand for? Sorry for being so naive but i see it all the time and i was just wondering...

J.A.P. said...

Anytime. It stands for Laugh Out Loud

NUDGE said...

I really did LOL when I read your reply, funny why I didnt chap it till now. BTW it took me a while till I figured out what BTW stands for (but that I figured out on my own!)
Thanks!